Introduction

Alright, so I started a blog with LiveJournal.com, but I decided that I didn't like that one very well. I was just going to copy and paste my first few blogs from that one, but I decided not to. With something new, you should always start fresh. So, here we go. I'll do a quick introduction for myself, even though there's a little bit of an intro on my profile. Also, if you have any questions for me, feel free to let me know. I'll be happy to answer any questions you might have.

So, starting at the beginning, I was born in Tulsa, Oklahoma. But I don't consider Oklahoma my home. This is the reason I call myself a gypsy. (Romani = Gypsy, in case you didn't know.) I don't really consider any specific place home, unless I'm happy there. Where ever I currently live and feel comfortable living is where I call home. This is really nice because that means I'm fortunate enough to have a couple homes. I never have to feel homesick when I go anywhere, because if I'm happy, I AM home. If I had to choose one specific place though, I'd choose Washington state. I moved there when I was about six and we stayed there until I was ten. I consider this my most impressionable time, so that's where I feel that my life was changed the most. After that, we moved to South Dakota and I stayed until I graduated high school, I moved in with my boyfriend at the time, and then I went to a semester of college. That brings you up to date, where I currently live in California. We moved around a lot because of my mom's job. She's a computer programmer, but she works by contract. So, once her contract expires, her employer has the option to extend her contract or send her packing.

I spent the most time in South Dakota, but for most of the time I was there, I hated it. I don't really consider that place my home. I do consider that place to be the home of some of my best friends though. The last 6 months I lived there, I managed to meet some really great people and I became close with a lot of people I hadn't known before. In high school, I used to be a bit shy. I was very independent and I'd spend a lot of my time in the library reading, or at home (more than likely reading, lol), so people really didn't spend a lot of time trying to get to know me. Besides that, I was an "outsider" and people in South Dakota aren't very accepting. I did date one guy for probably about 5 years total, off and on. He was the one I moved in with. We were happy a lot of times, but we weren't meant to be together and that lead to a lot of heartache for both of us. I moved to Washington in 2007, because I was unhappy in South Dakota and I thought moving there would make things better. When I got there I realized that it wasn't the location, it was my life. I was simply unhappy with my boyfriend, my job, and where my life was headed. I broke up with him, moved back to go to school, and I feel that I grew up in a lot of ways.

When I moved back, there was a lot of stuff that happened in the span of six months. More than you could imagine, but even though a lot of it was a mistake, it helped me realize the important things. Like the fact that I can be as independent as I want, but that doesn't mean I have to cut myself off from the world. Friends are a blessing that I missed out in the beginning years. I was hurt in the past in a lot of ways, and I just didn't like people. But people try to be good, at least to your face, and that can really help when you need it. I learned a lot of other things, like booze and I don't really mix, lol... at least if there's a guy in the vicinity. I tend to loose all dignity and reserve. But even the mistakes were fun. It gave me a lot of memories. For example, one time I went streaking in a freezing cold corn field and got bruises and cuts all on my feet and then I was drunk, so I totally biffed it and skinned up my knees and hands, lol. But that's nice, you know? You lose the ability to do stuff like that when you get older. You do that when you're young, before you realize you look like a jackass, lol. But really, you don't realize what you're missing out on when you stop. It's so... freeing to just run around and act like you don't care what people think.

I do that a lot. I pretend that I don't care what people think of me. I think sometimes I forget that I'm just pretending, too. :P But it's a good thing, because people admire someone that can really be themselves. A lot of people think I'm brave and fearless just because I don't let other people influence me or get me down. They also think I'm brave and fearless because I don't let the thought of failure stop me from doing anything. A lot of people were amazed when I moved out here. I decided I wanted to move the weekend before I left. I just packed everything up and went. People don't understand that moving away from your friends and family isn't the end of the world. With technology, your friends are only a phone call or mouse-click away. And besides, you can always go back to where you started. A lot of people come to me for advice, and I think that's the reason why. I realize that nothing is permanent and nothing is as "life or death" as we pretend it is, and other people take that for wisdom. But seriously, the girl you want to get into bed isn't going to matter ten years down the road, and if she does, then it doesn't matter what you do now anyway.

Ten years down the road is always what people try to think about. Even though they pretend it doesn't matter, long term is always on people's minds. I always try to think about the here and the now. I don't get distracted by something that doesn't matter yet. Ten years from now will matter ten years from now. And yes, what you do today will shape your circumstances in the future, it's today that you have to think about. But that's my philosophy on things. Take it or leave it. Everyone deals with life in their own way, and this just happens to be what works for me and I try to take it in to my everyday life.

My everyday life is what I'll be talking about in this blog. Like I said on my profile, I moved to Southern California to pursue a career in entertainment. I'd like to be an actress. So, I'll be blogging about the things that I learn. Hopefully, I'll learn new ways to apply makeup, which is useful in auditions and just plain useful. Public appearance is always something that people don't understand. If I can learn something about that down here, then by god, I'll share it, lol. I'll share things on voice technique. Voice is a big part of acting, whether it be singing or just acting, you can convey a lot with your voice. So, I'll blog about certain techniques that I'll learn and little life tips to improve your voice, like don't drink carbonated drinks and such. I'll also be taking classes on acting technique, so I'll share what I learn from that as well. And maybe I'll throw in some Spanish, French, and Japanese. I love learning foreign languages and speaking other languages is always useful. I plan to study dance and other forms of movement, such as martial arts and exercise. I'll share information on that as well. I'll also keep everyone updated on the type of diet that I pursue and the type of exercise that I do. I'm going to study programming languages. C ++ and Java, specifically. My mom is a computer programmer, like I said, and she'll be learning new languages, so I'll help her out with that, since that's an interest of mine as well. I'll also be making my own beauty supplies, such as bath bombs, bath salts, cleansers, soaps, moisturizers, masks, and etc. so of course I'll share the recipes and tips on those as well. And all of this will correspond with YouTube videos that I'll be making, so you can watch and read what I have to say.

But I have a lot to catch up on. So, I'll continue that in another post since it's no longer the introduction. Thank you all for taking the time to read this and I hope you stay tuned. There's a lot more coming up.